Its been so long since I’ve posted and a lot has happened. Therapy is going well and the medication has kicked in.
Dad came to stay with me for a week and a half (he leaves Thursday). He came for my last week of Uni and also to keep me out of hospital. I was barely eating or drinking, kept thinking of suicide, wanted to go into hospital so someone else could look after me and generally not doing well. I love dad and am so glad he’s here as I haven’t had full bad days yet, just moments like now. When I realise how lonely I am and much I wish I had someone else to help me through this. Family is great but I want someone closer who I can tell anything.
Its times like these I don’t want to get better and I just don’t want to wake up. What did I do to make this happen? I miss who I thought was my best friend so much right now. I want to know if its just me having these issues. He’s over there with friends and I got left all alone. No one close to lean on.