I feel like I’m in limbo. I don’t know what to do. My life is so messed up. Things have been so bad since I got back. Saturday was great, I was al excited about my fish and getting new fish. Sunday was not good. Sunday night was so bad that I took 10 sleeping tablets plus another 6 pain killers. I slept through Monday to Tuesday morning. I basically haven’t showered, eaten or brushed my teeth. I just don’t care. I feel so lonely and isolated. I don’t know if I should go home to Darwin or if I should percivere here. I don’t feel like I”ll ever get better, I don’t even feel like I want to get better. Its like theres nothing there, no past and no future. Everything around me is black and I’m just barely living, not really awake, not really functioning.
I don’t want to worry people, mI feel like I’m not worth it. Reading my favourite websitess just seems to do me harm as I wonder why the good things don’t happen to me.
I’m so sorry to everyone.