I felt like I had to inform someone of my loneliness. It isn’t something that can be posted on Facebook. I’m not even sure if its something that can be told to a person directly. Because after all it is probably my own fault. I feel at times (most of it) that I can’t connect with the majority of my friends outside of Hand Up. I barely ever see my uni friends an I have noticed that I don’t get invites to things anymore. I see things/events constantly on Facebook, pictures of my class and friends together all having fun, but I’m never there, never told about it. Is it my depression, the fact that I am no longer part of that class or is it that I have withdrawn from them? I have no idea, but whatever it is I hate it. I haven’t seen or heard from Sean in months, I tried texting him and sending him a few messages on Facebook, but I never got a response so I gave up. Is it all my fault that the only people I see regularly are the ones from Hand Up? I visit Tim at work often. Do I no longer have a connection to those outside of the group? Sure I usually enjoy being on my own, doing my own thing, but I do need sometime with others. Why is it that I’m always the one that has to take the first step? I barely get the motivation to eat let alone do anything else. I wish that someone out there cared enough to take that step for me, but it seems like no one outside of Hand Up remembers I exist. None of my other friends seem to care enough to remember me.