I felt like I had to inform someone of my loneliness. It isn’t something that can be posted on Facebook. I’m not even sure if its something that can be told to a person directly. Because after all it is probably my own fault. I feel at times (most of it) that I can’t connect with the majority of my friends outside of Hand Up. I barely ever see my uni friends an I have noticed that I don’t get invites to things anymore. I see things/events constantly on Facebook, pictures of my class and friends together all having fun, but I’m never there, never told about it. Is it my depression, the fact that I am no longer part of that class or is it that I have withdrawn from them? I have no idea, but whatever it is I hate it. I haven’t seen or heard from Sean in months, I tried texting him and sending him a few messages on Facebook, but I never got a response so I gave up. Is it all my fault that the only people I see regularly are the ones from Hand Up? I visit Tim at work often. Do I no longer have a connection to those outside of the group? Sure I usually enjoy being on my own, doing my own thing, but I do need sometime with others. Why is it that I’m always the one that has to take the first step? I barely get the motivation to eat let alone do anything else. I wish that someone out there cared enough to take that step for me, but it seems like no one outside of Hand Up remembers I exist. None of my other friends seem to care enough to remember me.
Thanks for the mention Sis.
Love you heaps
Is Sean the one who had a baby? You were great friends with him weren’t you? That’s so disappointing!
I know what you mean about groups doing things without you. My old uni group do things without me, then one day (about 2 months ago) i found out about a catch up and they said ‘oh you should come!!’, and reluctantly (because i didn’t want to intrude) i did. It was great fun and now they invite me more often. Although admittedly i don’t go too often. I used to say no so often which made them just stop asking. There’s only so many times someone can take no as an answer and keep trying.
So I doubt very much they don’t invite you because they don’t want you there, Id guess they simply assume you’re spending time with others now. So give one or some of them a call, a text, or an email. Say ‘hey ___, how’re you going? We should catch up soon!’. I’m sure they’ll invite you then
Seriously you’re great fun, and if you were here you’d be my first pick xxxx
btw – assuming i have a regular wedding and don’t elope, will you be my bridesmaid?
man these smiley faces look evil