Too much time to think is not good. I love work and I love being busy, but I never feel relaxed and rested no matter what I do. When I’m not at work I’m sitting on the computer, watching or reading things that I enjoy but afterward make me sad. The happy endings, the love stories. Like where in hell am I ever going to meet a guy, let alone ‘the one’? I don’t do anything that could allow this to happen. I feel so lonely sometimes that I occasionally call someone. Which I guess isn’t the best idea, because re-falling for someone when you are pretty sure they don’t reciprocate is not fun. Hell I’ve done it once just to hear his voice.

I’m not sure what I feel anymore. I discovered that my group of friends from uni were all here for graduation, yet not one of them contacted me. I didn’t know about it till after I saw pictures of them all together on facebook.

I feel like I’m not getting anywhere. Have no apetite and no motivation. If I’m not at work I’m lucky to eat at all, let alone something healthy.

Its a new year, supposedly full of possibilities. I made only two resolutions this time, to eat once piece of fruit a day and to swim after work. We’ll see how I go.